forced blockage

we’ve been friends for like 3 years now, going 4, and it’s hard to accept and realize that it meant nothing to them.

i’ve valued them soo much, i’ve practically treated them as my own relatives or something close to that, yet i’ve found out that they’ve been stabbing me from behind.

all those time i’ve been sharing my mind to them, they have deliberately exposed my secrets to everyone else. the trust i have granted to them a long time ago has easily vanished. 3 years of buildin up that friendship and companionship yet it is now put to no use.

they were my confidantes, the one i was willing to do anything for, i granted them favors as long as i knew that it was within my power.

but now, all of those days of laughter and smiles have turned into anger and tears, of regret and remorse, and more vehemently into hate.

yes, into hate. my pride was not stepped upon, it was trampled and i do not like it. i was made a fool of myself. they shouldn’t be considered friends at all. i hate them. gawd i hate them so much.

but i mustn’t show them that, they’d be beyond mirth. i must be strong and realize that the new friens i have now are better than they were. these new friends were the ones i though who were against me, but now proven that they really are by my side, the REAL true ones.

My Handwriting Analysis! :)

Shryne uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Shryne does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Shryne will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying “I love you” is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Shryne is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask “Is this best for me?”

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Shryne doesn’t write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Shryne will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Shryne believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Shryne is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Shryne can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn’t like it the way she is doing it, then they can just “go to hell!” This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.

Shryne is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Shryne learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won’t forget.

Shryne is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said. These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.

She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other “less detailed” people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.

Shryne’s true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Shryne that she wasn’t a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Shryne also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn’t have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Shryne is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Shryne’s self-concept is artificially low. Shryne will stay in a bad situation much too long… why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Shryne to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Shryne is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Shryne is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Shryne changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Shryne feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer’s attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Shryne has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Shryne fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as she moves down the page. If this is true, then Shryne has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Shryne is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Shryne is leaving the past behind and moving on to what she perceives as an exciting and enticing future.

Disclaimer of Love

Love, a four letter word that is too short to define the deep emotion it stands for, but too long to spell out.

an enigma that can never be solved. a predicament that shall forever remain a mystery.

an emotion that can overwhelm so many, but will overwrought most.

a complicated puzzle that seeks no peace.

a powerful sentiment that can turn into hate in a matter of seconds.

a never ending poem of pain and mystery.

if only i could strike cupid with his own arrow so he would know how painful it is when engaged in this so-called emotion, love.

little does he know cupid know how many times i have dried my eyes from tears that falls with no limitation.

yes, love has captivated many and has inspired most.

but if love could define so much emotion, then why am i not feeling it too?

can i not also be loved in return by the very person my heart beats for?

can i not also be needed in return by the very reason of existence?

perhaps a line should be drawn for such matter, that we could love the person who loves as just as much or even more,

cause no matter how deep i tend to love him, he just won’t bother to love me back..

love, as they all say, could move mountains.

if so, then why couldn’t i even move him to love me?

love could give you that mirth that would seem so unimaginable.

then why am i mourning every single day?

love will come your way when you are most ready. but why come if it’s not meant to stay?

i do not mean to denounce and eradicate the ambiguous term of joy that has become synonymous with love.

i am only trying to testify that love has also become a synonym of pain.

we often forget that not everything in this world holds a happy ever after.

we have been blinded by these many fairy book titles of a prince charming for every girl,

a knight in shining armor for every damsel in distress.

sometimes, we are hurt by the very person we would live our life for and would even give up to.

we fight for someone who doesn’t even give a damn about us, or if not, they care for us, make us feel that we are special to them

but in the end, they turn their backs to us and pretend that we never existed, nonetheless, make us feel we were never part of something special in their life.

love has become unfair to most of us,and yet, most people who are giving the best of their love,

are the very people who are not loved in return-blinded by the deep passion they have no choice but to hide,

forever unexpressed. existing for a person who is born for someone else.

but love will only wrought us if we allow it to. it is up to us if we let that person’s memories haunt us forever.

it is up to us if we would want to be forever drowned by painful reminisces. i

n the end, we are the bearers of our own actions.

love will trap us if we would want to be locked in.